one year ago

we were waiting for our little peanut to come into the world. i had a csection so we had a scheduled delivery. i was anxious and excited. hopeful and scared. i was anxious and scared of the csection itself bc i had heard some crazy stories. i was excited and hopeful to meet my little peanut. i couldnt wait to get my hands on her. i wanted to know what she looked like. i wanted to know how much she weighed. i wanted to smell her and kiss her and feel her in my arms. i wanted to feel that feeling that everyone talks about when you are a mommy. i couldnt sleep that night. my stomach hurt. i had butterflies. i couldnt believe that i was finally going to be a mommy.